Reincarnated as the Only Human

Chapter 377: Musings of a Mother

Chapter 377: Musings of a Mother

With the three children fast asleep on my body, I sighed softly and stroked their heads, a smile tugging at my lips as I noted how they all nuzzled closer to me at my touch, with Aka burying herself even deeper into my cleavage as she took up the warmest portion of my body; Ehretia was content to cuddle against my side, while Ipoala's head was laying on my shoulder, the Pink Robinkin nestled in the crook fo my arm.

Each of them were completely out of it, their young bodies demanding this rest so that they could go back to playing and enjoying the wonders of being a child tomorrow, pushing themselves to have as much fun as they could whilst also continuing to grow taller and larger with each passing hour.

Looking at them and thinking of their growth, I felt the pangs of guilt as I stared down at Ehretia and Aka, wondering if I had done something... 'wrong' as a Mother by deciding their 'skillsets' before they were born, using my System to give them innate talents and preferences that would undoubtedly shape who they became in the future.

Was I in the right for doing that?

For deciding that Aka would be skilled with a blade and adept at the art of killing, while Ehretia would blossom into an elegant flower that enjoyed the various arts?

What if Aka wanted to dance and not fight, while Ehretia wanted to hunt instead of sing?

This System of mine didn't make me a Goddess; I had powers, and there was a certain amount of responsibility that came with it.

Responsibility to ensure that I used it properly for myself and my family, and a responsibility that I didn't try to think of myself as better than the rest of the world just because I had this System; life was precious and unique, and I had seen first hand already that a System didn't guarantee my safety.

Yiksa was the realistic example of how unprepared I was, but the Duchess... she was the real eyeopener for me, her boundless mana and raw strength with that mana making me sweat even now, wondering what I could possibly do to someone that powerful in my current state.

Could I protect not only myself, but my family as well?

Is that not why I decided that Aka - as well as Camara and Aethisia before her - should have skills meant to defend themselves from harm?

Because I knew that there was a chance that I wouldn't be there to protect them all the time?

It was a dilemma that threatened to consume me in this pitch black room, but a single thought pushed that pervading feeling away and instead made me shake my head as I internally cursed myself.

There was always a happy medium, and there were certain skills that I was going to end up giving all of my children anyways - as well as those that were close enough to me to either feel like my children or ended up as my lovers.

[Mana Sense] was the surefire answer from the Survival System; granting vision to the Weave and allowing my children - or those I considered close who weren't actually my biological children - to harness such a potent power source was very, very obvious.

[Closed Womb] was another, since it was obvious that anyone could enjoy the pleasures of sex through the vagina, even if they were a futanari; some were like Rhefia, who never once asked or desired vaginal pleasure, while others were like Sari, wanting to be on the receiving end sometimes.

Giving that skill would just insure that unless they wanted to, my children couldn't get pregnant without the consideration and acceptance to do so; of course, it wasn't infallible, and there was likely ways to 'force' the womb to host life, but this was still a 'security' measure that I wanted to take.

Finally, the other clear answer was [Pleasurable Body], which was something that made me curious; it worked, certainly, since I could confidently say that Aethisia's cock was far superior to the Guard's that I had mated with earlier today, even if they were the same size.

She just felt better, and when I compared the pussies of Prixisia and Kalia, they were also noticeably different in the way they made me cum, with Kalia draining so much more from me per ejaculation and far quicker than Prixisia ever did, even if the Lamia was so damn excellent at sex.

Since I had no other skills that I was determined to give from the Breeding System to women who might never desire children of their own or even be 'women', I was reluctant to give [Pain Blockers] to them since it also seemed to lead to a higher desire for pain during sex...

Or maybe Camara and Kalia were just imitating me and molding themselves into masochists because it's what they've seen give their Dama's the most pleasure..?

I don't know, but there might be a correlation between the skill and masochism, so...

Anyways, I sighed as I accepted the prompt in the System, gifting Ipoala [Mana Sense], [Closed Womb], and [Pleasurable Body] as I leaned down and kissed her head, before smiling wryly as I realized that I had agonized over this for what felt like little reason...

And I noted the large amount of level ups I had been neglecting, which made my tired brain hurt just a little tiny bit...